Tomorrow I must return to work. While I love my job, it is really breaking me up inside to have to be away from Gabriel for any length of time. I haven't been away from him for more than 45 minutes during his entire life, and that was only on two occasions. I have taken care of him and loved him practically every minute of his young 12 weeks and four days of life. He is such a treasure. Tomorrow he will be taken care of by his dear Daddy, the next best person to his Mommy. I have pumped milk and stored it in the freezer so he'll have his nourishment. I just hope he doesn't feel that I've abandoned him. I hope he will make the transition easily. He is a pretty easy-going little guy, I just hope it all goes OK.
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Maternity leave comes to an end
Tomorrow I must return to work. While I love my job, it is really breaking me up inside to have to be away from Gabriel for any length of time. I haven't been away from him for more than 45 minutes during his entire life, and that was only on two occasions. I have taken care of him and loved him practically every minute of his young 12 weeks and four days of life. He is such a treasure. Tomorrow he will be taken care of by his dear Daddy, the next best person to his Mommy. I have pumped milk and stored it in the freezer so he'll have his nourishment. I just hope he doesn't feel that I've abandoned him. I hope he will make the transition easily. He is a pretty easy-going little guy, I just hope it all goes OK.
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Rhode Island. Never been, but they have cute babies up there.
Dear Beth,
I came across your story while looking up SUDC in google search one day. While looking around on the SUDC website, Natalie Joy's name just stood out - It really did.. I don't know why but I felt compelled to click on her name and read her story. I'm glad I did, but knowing what I know now, I am so unbelievably sorry that you've had to endure the loss of such a special and beautiful little girl. Words fail me, all I can offer is my deepest sympathies.
The pictures of Natalie captivated me. I must admit that I had a very difficult time not crying while reading her story and looking at her pictures.. My daughter eventually asked me if I was okay. Natalie looks just like my little girl Amelie who is 17 months old. God bless her little heart. I truly am sorry for your loss.
I left a message on Natalie's memorial site under the name 'Lina'. I thought about Natalie tonight and thought I'd visit your blog and see how you were doing.
I have to offer a heartfelt congratulations on the birth of Gabriel - He is so very cute. You have the three most adorable children. :) I hope the first day back at work wasn't too hard for you or little Gabriel.
Whilst I've never been in the tragic position of losing a child.. If you ever need to talk, I would be more than happy to be there and listen. Anything at all, I mean it. Even if it's just to vent about how unfair life is or how much you miss your little girl. :( Your love for your children is overwhelming, I can see that in every word you write. You are a wonderful mommy Beth and Jocelyn, Natalie and Gabriel are very lucky to have you.
Anyway, I just wanted to send a message to let you know that even though we don't personally know each other, I have been touched by your story and I know I won't forget Natalie.
Best wishes, much love and hugs to the Adamo family,
Lina
Dear Lina,
Thank you for your loving words and for taking the time to get to know my beautiful Natalie and our family a little bit. I have no way of reaching you directly through the blog, so can you send me an email through Natalie's web site? Just click "contact Beth" near the top of the page. Thanks, would love to stay in touch.
Best to you and your family.
Beth
Hi-
I just stumbled onto your blog and my heart aches for you. I am so sad for the heartbreaking loss of your little girl. I can not imagine such a loss.
I wondered if you had read the story on this blog- I stayed up several nights reading it from the beginning: http://audreycaroline.blogspot.com/
God promises he is near to the broken hearted and he will bring healing. You are in my prayers.
Love,
Jennifer
good work
cute babies up there
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